this drunken stupor

This drunken stupor,
Numbs the pain,
Of my wasted life,
Of all the lies I tell myself,
For me to sleep at night.

I sing myself a lullaby,
That it will be alright,
That in the morning,
When I wake,
The sun will be shining bright.

My delusions of reality,
Addiction to this pain,
Guiding me thru,
Love’s a cruel game.

Doubting I will ever recover,
Seems as though,
I’m scarred forever,
And yet I hope I find my way
To that eternal slumber.